sometimes.....

I just wish I had my Dad around to talk to.  Do you ever feel like that?  Do you ever just really miss talking to certain people in your life? Maybe they have passed away, maybe you just lost touch or maybe there were certain events that took place that set you apart.  What do you miss most?  What would you tell them?

I know for me I miss his genuine listening ear.  One that you can only get from a Dad.  That ear that listens intently and then with a firm message tells you what he thinks.... because he loves you with all his heart. What would I want to tell him?........  I would tell him what an AMAZINGLY strong granddaughter he has.  A granddaughter that is just like him in so many ways.  I would tell him about his grandson he never met, who has his SAME temperament and is just as stubborn as he was! LOL  I would tell him all about my journey and my success!  I would tell him about the fear I have for the future and decisions I have to make and respect his advice.  I would introduce him to all the amazing people in my life that have supported me and loved me through this journey.  I would show him how much people can change when they really want to.  I would ask him how he was able to whether the difficult times? .... I would ask him what the best tires are to put on my vehicle?   ......I would ask him whether it is a good idea to pursue a new dream?   ......I wold ask him out to lunch to one of my favorite restaurants.  I would ask him for a hug..... and as he left I would hug him back and tell him how much I loved him......

I know many of you reading this have lost your Dad or your Mom, or any loved one and miss them as much as I miss my Dad.  I know what it feels like on those days when it's just really hard.  Like standing at the card isle at target and looking at all the cards that you would have gotten  your dad for father's day.  Or so desperately wanting that big shoulder to cry on when life feels really tough.  It's good to have those feelings, it's good to go through those emotions because I believe it gives you a desire for LIFE.  A desire to appreciate the people you HAVE in your life.  You just have to be willing to acknowledge those bad days..... push through them and come out the other side with a desire to live and experience life and enjoy each of those really great moments you do have.  Or you can live in a dark hole and wish everyone around you could experience your pain and suffering with you.  I have lived both and I can tell you........ the first choice is a much better one!

YOU have the ability to be AMAZING, don't get stuck in your own pain (whatever that pain may be) .... move forward and show the world how it's done!