Sometimes you need to jump!

Ever feel like the risk of drowning is more appealing than jumping to someone who can save you? 

I have been working so hard at being though, getting my thick skin back and trying to prove something, that without realizing it I pushed away my support system. I have been treading water for the past month and it's taken it's toll on my spirit.  

Out of difficult times....... new growth occurs. As much as I don't like it... and who does?? I needed to remind myself that we are brought to a place that may feel overwhelming at times.......for a reason. Thankfully I have a support system set in place to remind me.... Sometimes you put so much effort into what feels good and feels comfortable, only to find out your running away from what isn't comfortable and doesn't feel good. 

This week I FINALLY took a jump...... No, I took a leap! I listened and trusted and as hard as it was, I got through it. I did not like it..... not at all, but what an amazing feeling it is to have a feeling of..... freedom.  Really that is what it is; freedom to think, and act and do...... how I feel Jenny Flynn should. Not because of my past, not because of what was necessarily learned, not because of what I thought people would think. I am FREE to be ME. I have released myself and I accept Jenny Flynn for who Jenny Flynn is........ 100% and that is called...... Grace. 

If you struggle with your past, if you struggle with your identity, if you struggle with believing in yourself....... Jump..... JUmp......JUMp.......JUMP!  You will come out the other side a better person. 

~Jen