I'm MAD

     AGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am so MAD!!!!  This blog is about being real so here it is........ I'm mad, NO I'm actually pah hissed OFF!   It's been 8 days since the scale has moved EIGHT let me repeat EIGHT days!!!!  I was on a path that was leading me directly under 150lbs this week, and right now.......... I am sitting at 151lbs.   Seriously, I am just so MAD MAD MAD and FRUSTRATED!
     When you are so focused on your weight loss and watch everything with your food how often you exercise, and then to NOT see results.......  It starts to weigh on your thought process!  In my mind I keep dwelling on the fact that I've done something wrong, I've put too much fat into my body, even if it's healthy fat, it was too much!  And now, it sits in my body and it sits and sits and sits there for a LONG time.  This has happened before and it takes a week for it to filter out for me and TIME IS TICKING!!!!    I know this sounds like crazy talk and what's the big deal?   The big deal is I have a REALLY SWEET MARK II CAMERA on the line, that's the big deal!  There are a small few of you that will understand this..... When you  are working really hard, I mean really hard at weight loss for  a long period of time, to the point where you are so focused that you know how your body reacts, how it is going to gain and lose weight only to see your hard work without result --It's frustrating.
I purposely did not write anything Monday because I was worried that putting really negative comments on here could disrupt progress.  But ultimately I decided it's better to put the reality of weight loss and ALL THAT GOES WITH IT  on here as well.
     What to do in this situation?  Cry, no I mean it cry it really it does help.  Kinda lets out some built up emotion - okay check.  I tell my family to back off me a bit right now, all I need is for someone to be joking and trying to be funny - yeh, no,  so not cool with me, puts me right over the edge.
I personally try to withdraw a bit, I don't like to be around people when I feel like this.  I do some quiet time; reading, praying, watching motivational videos.   It helps if you can stick to it and tell yourself "just get through today"
What I do know is.... this  is all normal but it's also important to not stay here.   Frustration MUST to lead to ACTION.  What is my action step?  Go back to the basics, go back to what I know to work for me and MY body.  I need to walk the hungry line, I need to stay focused and not let my temptations get in my way even if they are healthy options.  Stay focused and DO NOT let the small distractions in my life get to me.  Are your feeling frustrated?  If so, what are your action steps????

spinach salad

Raspberry Spinach salad:

cup of spinach

grilled chicken breast

10 rasberries

small cucumber diced

toss with aged balsamic vinegar